Clear, I'm very sorry you have had such awful lifelong health issues. I can at least relate to that, though mine have been of a different flavor.
I'm glad you have not given up! I find it heartening to read that you have struggled so and even come to some peace with, I feel, a great deal of insight.
Thank you so very much for sharing your perspective and some of what you have learned. And I'm glad you're a Theist again.
You're welcome. It's kind of a crummy deal, but it can have its benefits. Weird how that can work. I know it doesn't always turn out that way.
I do wonder how much of the trans world might have its origins in poisoning of one kind or another. We're just swimming in poisons. This is also known as "scientific progress".
So much is toxic, now. I would not be surprised at all if a lot of people's hormones have been disrupted in various ways. Chemical toxins seem to be everywhere.
And moving out of the city (as we did during the plandemic) doesn't necessarily help. We've moved into farm country, fields all over the place -- and a dearth of wildlife in our little woods compared to the 'burbs we fled from12 miles away! There's something very wrong with that. And all of us who eat are ingesting that toxic spew they're using to 'increase' their 'yields', with the exception, I suppose, of those truly dedicated to consuming only organic.
And it's been going on for such a long time. I'm in my mid sixties, and when I was young the county would send water trucks around and spray a mixture of DDT and God knows what over our little flat ticky-tack houses and into the trees of the back yard. Wouldn't want mosquitos after all! Our dad told us kids to stay inside, but some would be out there right afterward. And while this may be strictly a co-incidence, one of my brothers and his best friend got caught out in it one day, and caught hell for it. Then at age 63, they each died of cancer within 2 mos of the other. My brother got lung, liver and pancreas, and his friend got lung cancer. It's like they both just exploded in cancer over the course of a few months, and this was back in 2014-2015, before the 'rona shots. It sure doesn't FEEL like a co-incidence to me, but I may lack objectivity on this issue.
Agricultural and medical poisoning have a long history. The book _The Moth in the Iron Lung_ attempts to trace some of it, related to polio.
My family lived in Alaska for two years, 1956-8, my 1st and 2nd grade years, and there were many mosquitos. And there were fogger trucks, and kids would run in the fog behind the trucks. I don't remember that I did, but it was in the air. I have read that DDT was no longer being sprayed that way by then, and that it was an oil-based fog, but I don't know what to believe. I don't think they were spraying anything healthy.
My mother had another kind of spray, hair spray, and she died of cancer at 54. I have always wondered about that. But she was never terribly healthy in my lifetime, and she had served in the Navy (WAVES) during WWII. There's no telling what she was exposed to, being in the military.
I am hearing about the dearth of wildlife in the forests, and we have noticed far fewer insects here in town. We do still have bees in the garden, and butterflies here and there. And there are squirrels. Not as many birds, I don't think. In nesting season birds used to buzz and peck our cats just for venturing outside, but we haven't see that for several years now. No nests.
The clear sky has also changed colors, and there are sometimes distinct trails in it, narrow streaks growing longer at one end, with different ones going in different directions. The sun is more intense in the summer, and we had record 116 degree temperatures last year. Something very unusual is going on.
Yes there are. The more I learn, the more of it I see. We are experiencing the culmination of human efforts to "make things better" by our own means. It's an important lesson.
Deeply disturbing, naturally. Masks slipping all over the place. Remember Mark 5:9? Then Jesus asked him, "What is your name?" "My name is Legion," he replied, "for we are many."
What was your experience bears next to no resemblance to the evil that is being done today.
Back in your childhood your problems weren't understood, and many people had a visceral fear of anything so far out of the ordinary. I get why your mom wouldn't talk about it. Lots of things couldn't be talked about. Then we collectively went way overboard in the opposite direction, where nothing was left unrevealed and was endlessly ruminated over. And here we are, back in a time of being disallowed to speak of anything that might derail someone's agenda. Interesting how the slope slips.
I hadn't seen the video. I have only listened to part of it so far, but much of what she is saying makes sense to me. She also errs in certain details, but it doesn't seem to affect the message very much.
Transsexualism in some forms has been around for a very long time. Mass poisoning by endocrine disrupters, however, is a relatively recent phenomenon. It is a known factor in some cases of transsexualism, but is rarely considered thanks to much the same censorship as that applied to discussion about poisonous injections that must not called out for what they are (historical ones as well as the latest and greatest).
When I was active in the trans community, it was common to talk about being "a woman trapped in a man's body". That is not how I understood my situation, and I suspect that some kind of brainwashing was occurring among those that did understand themselves that way. Maybe they heard it or read it, and saw an advantage to adopting it. Mine would not have been a popular view, however, and I kept it to myself, which points out one of the advantages of adopting the common one.
I also do not consider myself simply "a woman". The words "man" and "woman" carry implications for both sex and gender, under the presumption that the two will match, and usually they do, absent brainwashing, but occasionally they don't. What is the proper term for someone in this situation? I don't know of one. I use terms like "transwoman", with its inherent ambiguity, or mosaic, or even "androgynous leaning toward female". None is adequate.
I can't claim either "woman" or "man". Either way I am lacking attributes that go with the understanding of the word. And I have a dysfunctional endocrine system and a variety of other non-fatal physiological issues. I choose to present as a woman because I have more in common with women than with men. If I want to have any kind of social life, I have to choose one or the other ways to present. I suppose some people think it would somehow be better for them if I offed myself. I certainly have considered it in the past.
In the trans community, I saw a lot of people having fun. That is still the case as far as I can tell. Others, however, were depressed and miserable. With them, especially, I suspect that there is often some underlying physiological cause. It's not the same as mine, if they have had a baseline sex hormone panel that was normal (but who needs that now -- just take hormones and see what happens; it's safe and effective), but there are other possibilities. I used to follow the research, but am not doing so now.
I have little if anything in common with normally-developed men, socially, and never have, and it extends to a lesser degree to physiology as well. This caused me a great deal of trouble growing up, both because of my behavior (of which I was not aware) and because I was physically weak, and I never could understand what the problems were back then. Nor could I understand why men tend to behave in the ways that they do. I do now.
I also understand, now, the bind that my mother was in. On top of everything else, she may have understood that her poor health with her hormone problems might have been part of my problem, but she didn't say so. Instead, she complained to me (when I was four going on five) about how much I had cried when I was younger. Right. I know now that I cried because I had a serious hereditary birth defect in my ascending colon, not to mention brain damage. It's OK. I don't hold it against her. Her health problems were much worse than mine, and she only lived to 54. But it offers a certain insight into her mindset.
I don't have any plans to set right all of this that we have now. My main concern has been survival. But being whatever it is that I am, I do have the ability to see and point out certain things that are hard for others to see and, beyond survival, that is one of the things that I do.
And again, I can't believe my eyes what I am seeing.
Clear, I'm very sorry you have had such awful lifelong health issues. I can at least relate to that, though mine have been of a different flavor.
I'm glad you have not given up! I find it heartening to read that you have struggled so and even come to some peace with, I feel, a great deal of insight.
Thank you so very much for sharing your perspective and some of what you have learned. And I'm glad you're a Theist again.
You're welcome. It's kind of a crummy deal, but it can have its benefits. Weird how that can work. I know it doesn't always turn out that way.
I do wonder how much of the trans world might have its origins in poisoning of one kind or another. We're just swimming in poisons. This is also known as "scientific progress".
So much is toxic, now. I would not be surprised at all if a lot of people's hormones have been disrupted in various ways. Chemical toxins seem to be everywhere.
And moving out of the city (as we did during the plandemic) doesn't necessarily help. We've moved into farm country, fields all over the place -- and a dearth of wildlife in our little woods compared to the 'burbs we fled from12 miles away! There's something very wrong with that. And all of us who eat are ingesting that toxic spew they're using to 'increase' their 'yields', with the exception, I suppose, of those truly dedicated to consuming only organic.
And it's been going on for such a long time. I'm in my mid sixties, and when I was young the county would send water trucks around and spray a mixture of DDT and God knows what over our little flat ticky-tack houses and into the trees of the back yard. Wouldn't want mosquitos after all! Our dad told us kids to stay inside, but some would be out there right afterward. And while this may be strictly a co-incidence, one of my brothers and his best friend got caught out in it one day, and caught hell for it. Then at age 63, they each died of cancer within 2 mos of the other. My brother got lung, liver and pancreas, and his friend got lung cancer. It's like they both just exploded in cancer over the course of a few months, and this was back in 2014-2015, before the 'rona shots. It sure doesn't FEEL like a co-incidence to me, but I may lack objectivity on this issue.
Agricultural and medical poisoning have a long history. The book _The Moth in the Iron Lung_ attempts to trace some of it, related to polio.
My family lived in Alaska for two years, 1956-8, my 1st and 2nd grade years, and there were many mosquitos. And there were fogger trucks, and kids would run in the fog behind the trucks. I don't remember that I did, but it was in the air. I have read that DDT was no longer being sprayed that way by then, and that it was an oil-based fog, but I don't know what to believe. I don't think they were spraying anything healthy.
My mother had another kind of spray, hair spray, and she died of cancer at 54. I have always wondered about that. But she was never terribly healthy in my lifetime, and she had served in the Navy (WAVES) during WWII. There's no telling what she was exposed to, being in the military.
I am hearing about the dearth of wildlife in the forests, and we have noticed far fewer insects here in town. We do still have bees in the garden, and butterflies here and there. And there are squirrels. Not as many birds, I don't think. In nesting season birds used to buzz and peck our cats just for venturing outside, but we haven't see that for several years now. No nests.
The clear sky has also changed colors, and there are sometimes distinct trails in it, narrow streaks growing longer at one end, with different ones going in different directions. The sun is more intense in the summer, and we had record 116 degree temperatures last year. Something very unusual is going on.
Yes. Things are badly out of balance. It's as if there are so many axis of nature being meddled with all at once.
I'm so very sorry you lost your mom so early.
Yes there are. The more I learn, the more of it I see. We are experiencing the culmination of human efforts to "make things better" by our own means. It's an important lesson.
Have you seen this?
https://youtu.be/tLXdoqXbC6k
Deeply disturbing, naturally. Masks slipping all over the place. Remember Mark 5:9? Then Jesus asked him, "What is your name?" "My name is Legion," he replied, "for we are many."
What was your experience bears next to no resemblance to the evil that is being done today.
Back in your childhood your problems weren't understood, and many people had a visceral fear of anything so far out of the ordinary. I get why your mom wouldn't talk about it. Lots of things couldn't be talked about. Then we collectively went way overboard in the opposite direction, where nothing was left unrevealed and was endlessly ruminated over. And here we are, back in a time of being disallowed to speak of anything that might derail someone's agenda. Interesting how the slope slips.
I hadn't seen the video. I have only listened to part of it so far, but much of what she is saying makes sense to me. She also errs in certain details, but it doesn't seem to affect the message very much.
Transsexualism in some forms has been around for a very long time. Mass poisoning by endocrine disrupters, however, is a relatively recent phenomenon. It is a known factor in some cases of transsexualism, but is rarely considered thanks to much the same censorship as that applied to discussion about poisonous injections that must not called out for what they are (historical ones as well as the latest and greatest).
When I was active in the trans community, it was common to talk about being "a woman trapped in a man's body". That is not how I understood my situation, and I suspect that some kind of brainwashing was occurring among those that did understand themselves that way. Maybe they heard it or read it, and saw an advantage to adopting it. Mine would not have been a popular view, however, and I kept it to myself, which points out one of the advantages of adopting the common one.
I also do not consider myself simply "a woman". The words "man" and "woman" carry implications for both sex and gender, under the presumption that the two will match, and usually they do, absent brainwashing, but occasionally they don't. What is the proper term for someone in this situation? I don't know of one. I use terms like "transwoman", with its inherent ambiguity, or mosaic, or even "androgynous leaning toward female". None is adequate.
I can't claim either "woman" or "man". Either way I am lacking attributes that go with the understanding of the word. And I have a dysfunctional endocrine system and a variety of other non-fatal physiological issues. I choose to present as a woman because I have more in common with women than with men. If I want to have any kind of social life, I have to choose one or the other ways to present. I suppose some people think it would somehow be better for them if I offed myself. I certainly have considered it in the past.
In the trans community, I saw a lot of people having fun. That is still the case as far as I can tell. Others, however, were depressed and miserable. With them, especially, I suspect that there is often some underlying physiological cause. It's not the same as mine, if they have had a baseline sex hormone panel that was normal (but who needs that now -- just take hormones and see what happens; it's safe and effective), but there are other possibilities. I used to follow the research, but am not doing so now.
I have little if anything in common with normally-developed men, socially, and never have, and it extends to a lesser degree to physiology as well. This caused me a great deal of trouble growing up, both because of my behavior (of which I was not aware) and because I was physically weak, and I never could understand what the problems were back then. Nor could I understand why men tend to behave in the ways that they do. I do now.
I also understand, now, the bind that my mother was in. On top of everything else, she may have understood that her poor health with her hormone problems might have been part of my problem, but she didn't say so. Instead, she complained to me (when I was four going on five) about how much I had cried when I was younger. Right. I know now that I cried because I had a serious hereditary birth defect in my ascending colon, not to mention brain damage. It's OK. I don't hold it against her. Her health problems were much worse than mine, and she only lived to 54. But it offers a certain insight into her mindset.
I don't have any plans to set right all of this that we have now. My main concern has been survival. But being whatever it is that I am, I do have the ability to see and point out certain things that are hard for others to see and, beyond survival, that is one of the things that I do.
And again, I can't believe my eyes what I am seeing.
But interesting indeed.